Take a fresh look unto Jesus.

As the dispenser of grace, Jesus delights while others fatigue.

Jesus is not only delightful but he is also loveable and inoffensive.

“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4

When I wonder about the stamina of my militancy in the army of Jesus, I trace back not to my stubborn Inca genes, not to my pride or a sense of duty, not even to my training but to delightful Jesus who I find inoffensive, irresistible, loving and lovable so that no sacrifice is enough to offer on his altar.

I have come to conclude that if it wasn’t for Jesus, I will not put up with anything or anyone around me including myself. It is Jesus who taught me to love myself the right way and led me to conclude that I know there is nothing lovable within me. But if Jesus finds me lovable, then it must be Jesus in me the hope of glory so that Jesus loves himself within me. Jesus loves me for his own namesake and so does the Father therefore even the angels love me and all this because of delightful Jesus who finds a delight to grant the desires of my heart which at this moment is a closer walk with him.

There is a pit in the valley of the shadow of death where a pilgrim fellowships with Jesus by becoming a man of sorrow acquainted with grief that is despised and rejected by man from whom many hide their faces.

When the best of your sleepless nights becomes the one-day-old bread, it is time to accept that I have worn out the welcome mat and think that I have become a in the pain of the neck to my donors who are experiencing “Donors Fatigue.”

While on one hand your need multiplies along with the desires of your heart, those who soared once with you like eagles are visibly fatigued and rightly so. This is also from the hand of God for you to learn to look nowhere but upwards to the only one who will never get tired of you or become weary but keep granting you the desires of your heart with great delight.

In all honesty, what you fear the most has arrived and that is old age and the removal of every option in life but to look upward. Jesus, like a possessive jealous husband will not take you to his chamber while you are still suffering from wandering eyes. Yes, the time to delight in the Lord and in him alone has arrived and the escape from this quicksand is to learn to delight in the Lord Jesus only.

As an Inca descendant where money was not known but “Trade” of one product for another in the market, you will also run out of things to “trade” to satisfy your needs but by looking upwards in genuine delight.

As a man of sorrow acquainted with grief, despised and rejected in human relationships with broken hearts mended many times over, there's no reason to trust anyone and delight in relationships.

But this is Jesus and his word is sacred, his word is unique, his word is pure, his word is faithful, his word is powerful and the one thing that is certain is that there is no such a thing of lover’s fatigue in Jesus. I don’t have to be afraid that he will change his mind and dump me by the roadside at the mercy of thieves and robbers.

No, Jesus is compassionate. He will pay my rent and pay my bills to the Innkeeper so he can mend my wounds and will pay the balance of my account on his return. Jesus will pay to those who have invested in me. I will pay any extra expense when I come back. This is Jesus the delightful Savior and loyal Lord.

Gerry Gutierrez

PS. Overnight quiet times with Jesus.

Tacoma in all its majesty. View from the roof of my apartment.