After two tough weeks. A letter. Sunday greetings.

Does God love “Good little Boys” only?

 

In a state of complete weakness and overwhelmed with sorrow and at the literal end of my rope I heard myself asking God: "Papa do you love me?"

 

In His usual and unchangeable, firm and loving Way God answered nothing. At that moment the Holy Spirit brought Jesus to mind. Then I remember how my beautiful Savior gave himself up for me and that he also asked his father about his unprecedented experience that overwhelmed him to death.

 

The unchangeable God and father in heaven answers nothing audible to his own Son. In the same way he has answered me with his eloquent silence, by letting the Holy Spirit tell me: “Figure it out.” You know the answer to your own question my son. It is a matter that we have discussed before the creation of the world. I don’t want to offend you by answering as if you did not know the answer.

 

The Holy Spirit took over on me and I found myself weeping without control and reason, shaking all over my body, not doubting for a moment the love of God, yet shaking as a leaf and still weeping but knowing that he must love me because God does not love good little boys only. When we were yet sinners Jesus died for us. I loved this verse because God loved me before I did anything right or wrong,

 

What I love about the Gospel is that it is a consummated fact. Yes, it is a consummated fact and rooted in Space and Time, before the world began, before the sun and the moon and the galaxies were put in motion. The love of God was there before I was born and reborn. Yes. it was already a consummated fact in the heart of God, and recorded in the books of God.

 

Then I was overwhelmed within myself and came to praise the Lord, saying again and again “thank you father who art in heaven.” Thank you that you can hear my prayers as weak and as feeble as they are but you have already heard them clearly and answered them effectively.

 

I thank you father this day with all my heart for not answering me because you have already done it. I praise you for your silence. I praise you for the convincing power of the Holy Spirit within my heart, that you do love me because sometimes I am unlovable even by myself; only a God-sized heart can love me truly.

 

Thank you father, thank you Jesus, thank you Holy Spirit and thank you for making yourself visible by those who have helped me by recognizing you in me.  I thank you for confirming that I am yours.

 

This was your bad little boy who loves you so much and has no place to go but to Jesus. For him there is no one in the world but Jesus, not anyone but Jesus.

 

Gerry Gutierrez

 

“So, I am not the one living now, it is Christ living in me. I still live in my body, but I live by faith in the Son of God. He is the one who loved me and gave himself to save me.” Galatians 2:20. 

 

PS. Number 2 and on a happy note, “Roe V. Wade '' was overturned. Little guys won. Yeahhh!!!. Thank you Jesus. Yahoo!!!!! We won Aaliyah. Simeon, Josiah, Abraham, Fabricio, Franklin, Gaba, Leo, Remington, Felicity, Mateo and Emmaus.

PS. The pictures are a sample of my obedience to fill the earth and subdue it. “The multiplication of the Gutierrez.” I just got this picture today of my Great, Grand children from Peru.