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Gerry Gutierrez' Update
Remembering you in the name of Jesus, Ruthie and Keila. “ABIDE.”
JESUS SAID: “ABIDE IN ME.” There is no safer place in the whole Universe than to abide in
love under the wings of the Most High God. Today marks the seventh year of my Ruthie’s going home with the Lord. I remember as if it was just yesterday when Jesus came and with the beauty of his presence though Ruthie already with closed eyes saw Jesus by faith and the handsome appearance of her bridegroom took her breath away. My son Nathaniel and I still holding the right and the left hand of Ruthie stood in Holy ground in silence holding our peace for ever as if we had just answer the living God’s question: “Who gives this woman to be married to my Son.” Holding back tear of pain but in divine courage and relief even now I murmur: “Her son and I.”
While in my heart the soft voice of Ruthie started echoing in my ears for the
rest of my life, her words were: “More time for your Lord papa. More time for
your Lord and Prayer.” Ever since then my time is of Jesus and my thoughts are
on Prayer. My questions of life and living and death and dying have
ceased. I understand all things more than I am able to explain to others
in words.
It took the death of our Daughter Keila last year to
know that I have not lived in vain. I live to lift Jesus under the
conviction that he said, “If I am lifted up, I will draw all men unto myself.” Keila bought it and died for lifting Jesus among her
international students in the University of Delaware where she was a teacher
and a witness of Jesus unto death. I have the taunting task to live up to the legacy of two legendary
ladies lovers of Jesus in Ruthie and Keila. Let me be
honestly clear and sincere with you all my family and friends. If I were
you I would notice something different and uncommon in myself. Let me
confess that I am different not because I want to be different but because I am
really different. Not many among you has been forgiven so much as I have
and I love God more that the average believer because I have sinned more that
the average believer. The other reason of being strangely different is that I am not my own, therefore I cannot take credit for neither acts of good or bad. If there is any good in me it is by the grace and love of God and to the glory of God. If the is any bad in me it is not I but the sin like dust that so easily still entangles me about which I am against myself and for Jesus. When you are not your own, you can not take credit for good or
bad. Rest assured that even though you might notice sin in my life, I do not
practice sin neither I am able to boast about my sins consciously. Since the
death of my wife Ruthie I feel abandoned but I am not alone. He who
promised to be with me has not been absent from my life. My intimacy with
Jesus is the secret of my survival. Nothing in life is more important to me
than the fellowship with God by faith back in the Garden at the cool of
the day. I would give up anything to hang out with Jesus.
Now to finish safely this letter I will barrow some of Charles Spurgeon’s
words: “Do I feed on the Word? That Word would be no food for me unless the
Lord made it food for my soul, and helped me to feed upon it. Do I live on the
manna, which comes down from heaven? What is that manna but Jesus Christ
himself.”
By the way, speaking about the manna, I cannot help it but to remember the
manna of Jesus and the hands that served Jesus in love. Apart from Mother Mary, Jesus had Mary, Martha, the other Mary,
Joanna, Susana, Cleophas’ wife were very helpful in
his ministry of service on earth. Apart from my Ruthie I also had six great
women who encouraged me in my ministry on earth. Keila,
Kye, Kay, Kelly, Kay, and Katherine.
This was food for thought in memory of Ruthie who charged me to share my time
or life in a prayerful manner. Might Jesus to whom you belong bless you as you
remember that Salvation is of the Lord and it is not only a consummated fact
but also a completed work.
Gerry Gutierrez The “glow worm” of Jesus.
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