Confessions and Admissions.

 

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“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.”

2 Chronicles 7:14 

 

Dear Kids and friends, Georgia May 16, 2018   

 

You should know me by now that I never force the scripture reading of the day. If you look to your Bible App in you smart phone, you will notice that this is the verse of the day for anyone around the world who has an iPhone. Thanks to your prayers, I slept well last night.

 

My first thought this morning in prayer was on the matter of “Pride.”

My notes says: Ask Matthew the verse in the Trinity Hymnbook he shared with me many years ago about, “God hiding a smile behind a frown of his forehead.”

 

I know many who look at my old, tired, sick and beat up face hardened by time and bad experiences of betrayal and rejection that think they are looking at an angry man. When you add to that my silence at the weight of the world on my shoulders it tends to make uncomfortable those around me of weak knees or sensitive hearts.

 

It is sad and I am truly sorry about that. But I cannot ask forgiveness from that which is beyond my control because it would be admitting as wrong that which is not my intention. In fact the carving of my face is not entirely from the world but from the hand of God who has promised to make my face harder than their faces. Those scars should be seen as badges of honor as scars on my face as of a soldier of many battles.

 

I am Robert who approves and checks the grammar of Gerry’s letters say in honor to the true truth as a witness of Gerry do testify that he is a man of tender and loving heart. So do I Richard (an ordained Minister of the PCA) approve and encourages the publication of Gerry’s letters from the heart as a witness of Jesus to our generation. (These are my regular Tertius who greet you all in Jesus. Rom. 16:22) 

 

In the same breath I must admit that I was a hard, violent man, a blasphemer, a persecutor and an atheist enemy of God before Jesus cane into my life. But I did these things in ignorance and unbelief.

But as in Paul and myself, the worse of sinners God saved to show his grace as an example for those who might believe in Him who is all loving and gracious friend of sinners.

 

You have to understand that I have packed five life times of a normal man in one and that this life style has left scars of ugliness in my face that have nothing to do with the beauty of the work of God in my heart.

 

I find myself trying to correct the obvious ugliness of my face and correct the rejection I feel by posting picture of my childhood and youth and even trying to hide behind the beautiful faces of my kids and grandkids as if by being among them I may be counted as one more “pretty people”.

 

I find it hard to cope with rejection until I come to scriptures and see in Isaiah 53 “ The man of sorrows familiar with grief who was despised and rejected by men who hide their faces from him because they found him without beauty as to be attracted to him”.

 

Many of you are finding me not attractive and have taken the path of less resistance in rejection. I do understand that, but what I do not understand is some are throwing the baby out with the bath water.

If you do not like me, at least take the message and see if I am speaking on my own or I speak in the name of our Lord.

I do not mind some of you hating me as long as you love Jesus.

I am not in a beauty contest in this world. I do not seek my own glory but of him who has save me with strong hand. “I have been in the world, that is not a secret!!!” 

 

For me every good deed and progress I notice in my life is like a touch down that I celebrate in the closet of my heart with great joy,

While the super apostles and their follower raise their eyebrows as if they would be saying “Big deal or grandiose ideas we do that every day”.

I understand that also, but to me it is a “big deal” because I cannot believe how far I have come from where I first believed.

I know that I move like a bull in a china shop, or as “pig pen” from snoopy full of dust and generating dust among black tie and white gown dressed people with shining shoes.

 

It is no crime unless I hug you and contaminate you with my dirty self to your white gown. Like the bull it is not liable unless it breaks the China. I know that sometimes I step on your steel toe shining shoes, but what is wrong if by so doing I do not ruin its shine and does not hurt your steel toe shoes?

In contrast with me the politically correct do-gooders look better on my account? I rise in our behalf to challenge us to live up to what we have already attained and not to live to accumulate more information and not use it as an over eater who do not digest what we he has eaten.

 

Let us teach one another to obey and not only to accumulate information. Instead of making us wealthy information only will make us hoarder of information that will cloud your vision of Life who is a person and that is Jesus. I also know that some of you of Jesus are saying what you have said to me so encouragingly every now and then “Yes Gerry, preach it brother”.

 

But I also know that there must be some of you who are saying “How in the world did I made the mistake of given this man my Email”.

To them who dislike me but love me because love is from God I say, not the Lord; “You are an adult. You can use you block caller option or erase me from your contacts, but I do not need any musty letters because it is not with me you have problems but with my boss whose honor I will seek “until the cows come home” as some super apostles have told me in writing that he will not believe in me even I repeat about my call until the cows come home”.

 

Beware; I have yet to see someone who has been nasty with me without reason getting away with it.

 

The Lord fights my fight and that is where my boldness comes from.

I hate pride with passion and I love humility with equal passion. 

God is at work in me you do not need to help God. I welcome humiliation from him who is humble because he is not asking that which he himself did not go through. God resists the proud but he is gracious to the humble. Let us humble our self or we will be humiliated.

It is God’s will and command that we may be humble at heart, and that is bound to happen regardless of how hard we may resist and waist time kicking the gore.

Let us pray for each other so we might be found as Job as one of whom God was proud of. Jesus said to make effort to be praised by God not by men.

I hope you find the thought provoking verse of the day as convicting and encouraging a verse as I have found it today. A witness of the grace and love of Jesus an actual friend of Jesus, the friend of sinners.

 

Please pray for my left kidney that is given me fits for the last few day and my diabetic legs are in pain.

 

Gerry Gutierrez

 

PS. Hebrews 13: 17

“Have confidence in your leaders and submit to their authority, because they keep watch over you as those who must give an account. Do this so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that would be of no benefit to you.”

 

Confessions and admissions are integral parts of the life of a witness who lives to testify in preparation for a report to the Lord when as servant he is called home.  Eschatological urgency is not only a matter of events, but also the state of souls at the hearing end and the Servants at the speaking end. God is building a case that includes all the elements of a real courtroom. The blood of souls is on my head as a witness of Jesus.

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Caleb and Gerry Gutierrez at The White House Press Room ten years ago.