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Gerry Gutierrez' Update
Something to brag about.
ÒI love the Lord, for he heard my voice, he
heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ears to me, I will call on him as
long as I liveÓ. Psalm 116: 1- 2.
Thank you my friends, for crying out for mercy
with me, because he has heard our voices. Let us keep asking again together and
calling him, as long as we both shall live or he returns first as a result of
our prayers. Yesterday, I went to see the doctor, for my
seventh day check up. I heard him say: ÒGood, Very good, Perfect. The Retina
has been attached, your vision will continue to be blurry for six months, come
back to see me in 30 daysÓ. At the counter, the nurse said, Òyou must be doing all
right, because he is giving you one month without appointment, Congratulations.Ó
I knew all things are a prayer away for them who are of GodÕs stuff. For us who
are called and have been chosen to be his witnesses are under ÒJehovah
care.Ó But curiosity got the best of me that I said to the
Father; may I ask you Lord, why are you doing this things to me? Then, he whoÕs
cannon is closed and work of redemption is finished, did not speak as if there
is need to add to his revealed word as if he has not already spoken all I need
to hear. He kindly deferred my question to the Holy Spirit, to remind me, to
guide me, to teach me, to comfort me and speak to my heart just as loud as 2000
years ago.
ÒGod did not spare his own Son from suffering
all kinds of testing. Jesus came as a witness, to testify about the love and
grace of God. Jesus has called his followers as witnesses to testify about
Jesus in us as the hope of glory.Ó
We do not testify in order to become a witness.
It's because we are witness that we testify. We cannot but testify what we have
seen and heard and become in Jesus. We are born again not to testify of the
fact of our new birth only. We are born again to testify about the work of
Jesus as God in us. Then like soldiers, we do not choose when to fight or to
whom to fight or where to fight.
For a witness of Jesus, to testify is not a choice,
but a holy duty where by no matter what we do or stop doing, we are testifying
because we are witnesses. It's not all about us, it's all about Jesus, it is he
doing so many things in us, through us and in spite of us in all of us at the
same time and for his own will and glory.
It's
none of my business to try to figure it out always the reasons of the seasons. It's been a long time since I
stopped fighting my own battles alone, he has
taking over. Ahead of me and at every turn there is nothing but good and
greater good.
It cannot be in any other way to
him who loves Jesus and takes him at his word in a child like manner. When I am
in great need I stop in full attention and can no longer pray as usual with my
words and thoughts.
I appeal to God in silence and Òwet prayerÓ. In those times, I
have a clear sense that he hears the drops of tears falling to the ground as
with a blast of a bomb that causes saints on earth to cry out with me and
Angels in heaven turned their heads not toward me, but toward God, to see once
again what they have seen and heard for so many centuries the love and care of
the Father for his little ones on earth. This battle of mine as any others, he will win on my
behalf and have his way as usual, because I belong to him as my hands belong to
me.
It is in our unity with God in Jesus that our hearts
are thankful even for the hand that slaps our faces or any other so call
mishaps. The pursuit of happiness and the search of safety at any cost will
only keep me from fellowshipping in his sufferings. Sufferings are designed to
leads us to experience oneness with God. Then we go from victory to victory and
from glory to glory and from strength to strength.
Therefore, sicknesses, persecutions, betrayals,
abandonments, pain and all kinds of evil including sin against me, are
missionaries doing the sovereign work of God in my life. Once the missioners get the job done, they have no
business to hang around but to leave. Suffering and persecution are like
hunting dogs driving us to the shepherdÕs presence; it is there that I can say,
"death is gain".
Bear with me my brothers for the length of my emails.
Thank that they are not as long as PaulÕs to his friends. The inheritance of
the believer is ÒFellowship.Ó
The times of Paul and his friends are gone;
this is my time with my friends.
Paul and I share one similarity and that is a bad
eyesight and old age.
I too write my
manuscripts in big letters with my one good eye at 75% capacity.
Then I
read it to my smart phone that puts it in writing not without misunderstanding
some words due to my heavy southern accent that many time is not what I wanted
to say. My next step is that I send it to myself via email to
my computer, from there I copy and paste on word and proceed to spell check,
grammar proof and edit it, in order to send to a missionary friend on the other
side of the world for a final check for any gross mistake. If she has time the letter will see the light of day
in three days in your monitor. I sent it to you with the rocket of prayer as
especial and personal delivery. You may have noticed an eschatological urgency on my
letters.
The reason being that I do not know how
much time I have left among you.
The other reason is that I have so much
I want to share with you that even though I am retired and have all the time of
the world, but it is not enough time for me to do all that is in my
heart.
I have an added problem that is calling my attention.
Couple of my toes is chronically getting black in the mornings due to diabetes
and poor circulation.
If I sit in front of the
computer too long, my legs swallow. I eat when I can and many times the wrong
things. My life is a life without option yet full of ideas and projects.
In the midst of it all, Jesus is indeed more than
enough for me. The Lord has send Nathaniel providentially to drive me around at
this time of need. i have
slowed down a little , but my direction is sharp and in alignment with God's
will as never before.
In the last four months I have dried up the ink of
more than 30 pens and I wrote hundreds of short articles thinking in you. You
may not understand yet at this time the content of some of my writings, but
after I am gone it's my prayer that it will be useful to you.
You are in no obligation to write me back, unless
under the loving conviction of the Holy Spirit. Otherwise it will not do well
to either of us to just write words of our own. We can't afford that kind of
letters at this stage of our lives. I don't even know how many people visit my websites
apart of all of you my friends on my safe list. I could be countless, few or
none. It's the love of God that constrains me to write to you as if I was at
the receiving end.
Let it be clear my friends, I'm not soliciting or
pursuing personal gain. You are my eyewitness of how it looks a man who has
decided to be a fool for Jesus. If I find favor in your eyes, then I ask you a
little bit more patience with me. You will find my words extremely new but
actually the same that is also in your own heart. The reason is that we both
are just remembering who we were in Jesus back in the Garden and why we are
here in this world. Many things I have done in the strength of the flesh
but this time is not one. Some may feel offended with my boldness. Please
do not get offended unless I am in open rebellion, heresy or denying Jesus
as God in the flesh or involved in gross sin. I am just so encouraged with the
power of prayer as the means to change the world in our generation that I
cannot stand still.
Your Gerry Gutierrez.
Gerry, a regular Moshe
Dayan! 
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