I cannot keep silent.

The doctors have spoken to speak no more. Yet it has been eight weeks of peace that passes all understanding that has engulf us. I waited this long to see if it was real or just feelings. Ruthie and I are exactly where God wants us to be. Solely and completely dependent on Him. This letter is to relate this new and fresh relationship with God. We have never love each other like this in our entire life. Not even when "Fat little Cupid first visited us with his silly arrows". Not even in our wedding day or at the birth of our children. I need not to consult flesh to declare us as the Couple of the Month of the whole wide world. We are way beyond cloud nine.

Ruthie is indispensable and irreplaceable to me? Who could love me as Ruthie?. Who could understand me as Ruthie does? She is one in a Billon. She is my gift of God. She fits under my left arm perfectly. She knows how to talk in every occasion with the right words every time. She never embarrasses me. She is classy. I love her so much even though she eats liverwurst and sauerkraut for dinner. Ruthie is a little bird that feeds on Love. Ruthie requires of her man to Love the Lord Jesus with a burning passion. I want Ruthie with me. I want to take care of her fifteen more years and depart from this Earth together.

Your prayers are greatly coveted more than you will ever know on this side of heaven. Because of the name of Jesus in which you pray for us as well as the basis in which you pray for us, which is the work of Atonement of our Lord Jesus in the cross. Your prayers are effectual and effective and avail much.

Your friends in The Name.

Gerry Gutierrez

PS. My dearly beloved, there are unspeakable things that I can’t write. When I try to write them down a knot comes to my throat and my eyes get blurry. We know what we want. But we want more what our Lord wants. Would you please let the Holy Spirit lead you how to pray for us?

Should my letters be (TMI) “To Much Information”, please bear with me. We are members of one body and I am realizing that my need to unload and testify is greater that my desire to be Diplomatic or “Religiously Correct”

Questions pregnant with answers!

How to write in words that which my heart can barely know about the mysteries of God on love and loving?
How to speak about the heavenly matters in earthly terms with words stained in sinful use and misuse talks?

Why does the sky wait till late in the afternoon to let the Sun decorate the most beautiful sunsets on its canopy?
Why does Love grow in sweetness and beauty when the heart has little or no time left to enjoy in its fullness?

Could it be that only now by mercy I am entrusted to know the mysteries of Love and Grace dwelling in my heart?
Could it be that one is not entrusted that which he cannot handle unless he is totally humbled or humiliated?

Who but wisdom knows that the best is yet to come and the worst is in the past to trouble me no more?
Who but Jesus knows that Love is to give self till death and by dying you truly live and by given you truly keep?

What is this within me that overwhelms my old heart with love unknown, love sublime, love Divine for my beloved?
What a manner of Love God has given unto us that we could dare to love as he loves. Is it in our spiritual genes?

Wherever it may be dear Lord, would you please fill us till we want no more? Would you drown us together in Love?
Where if ever can I find such a gift of God? Weren’t you Father who saw my helplessness and made Ruthie for me?

When did I appeal for mercy as much as I do now Lord? When did agony found me on my face as often as now?
When did a man need his wife as much as I need my wife now? Can I keep her sweet presence just to love her?

Will the King of the Universe not have compassion of the prayers and tears of his faithful and loving servant?
Will you my Lord ignore the prayers of the body of your beloved Son our Lord Jesus in whose name we pray?

Certainly not Lord. You will glorify yourself in and through us. By life or by death may your name alone be lifted up.
Help yourself from our lives dear Lord. But we rather be found awake than sleep when you return. We rather your will.

You know the desires of our hearts. Please you decide for us! Till then, allow your servant to put his house in order.
You gave Hezekiah fifteen years to put his house in order. Give me those years to put my house in order dear Lord.

“There is no secret of what God can do; what he has done for others (Abraham, Isaac, Jacob) he can do for me”.

Casting our lives is the strong loving and compassionate hands of Jesus. “Just believing”

Gerry Gutierrez
Georgia; November 2, 2011

PS. Pastor Tim Tinsley shared some thought that I think you will find touching.

A lady who prays in agony for another lady who is sick and suffering said in frustration: “Why does God allow that lady to suffer so much.? Doesn’t he have the power to heal her in an instant? I cannot understand. I am disturbed with the suffering of the believer.

Then came a gentle rebuke from her husband: “Oh you daughter of Eve, why are you focusing so much in the one thing that God does not want you to focus and you ignore everything else that God has given you?”