Pray for us tonight please!

Gerry

SOMETIMES, NEVER, NOW BUT ALWAYS

(To my Ruthie as she hurts beside me tonight)

Sometimes I am riding on His wings
Sometimes I am under His wings
Sometimes I am soring above the clouds
Sometimes I am barely able to crawl
Sometimes I am as hard as a rock
Sometimes I am as fragile as an eggshell
Sometimes I am strong and able
Sometimes I am of feet of clay.

Never wanting to embarrass you
Never wanting your blue eyes to cry
Never wanting you poor, sick, or worse
Never wanting fear to visit your life
“Never”, I said, “You will hurt on my watch”
Never should I promise what I couldn’t keep
Never a man is to forget he is just a man
Never could I’ve dared, but for the love of my life.

Now you say: “I am sorry it was for worse”
Now nor ever it was but for better my love.
Now who is to say what my eyes have seen
Now I know it was Jesus in you my hope of glory.
Now there you are oh gift of God wrapped for me
Now speak not so; let me seal your lips with a kiss.
Now erase not what you have written through life.
Now sleep in my arms tonight while I guard.

Always loved by a true Lover from Heaven
Always loved by a captive man on Earth
Always beloved by many, hated by few
Always fun to be around and about
Always having something to say, always
Always beloved by her children, always
Always a silently inspiring grandmother.
Always have I loved you, only second to God.

Sometimes I am confused and silly
Sometimes I make you blush a little
Never could I think in leaving you
Never could I think of you leaving me.
Now you say: “More time for your Lord my love”
Now, what is joy without whom to share?
Always we long to stay or depart together
Always wanting to see God like Simeon did.

Broken leg takes a long time to heal
Broken wing doesn’t fly alone by itself
Will a broken heart ever heal my Lord?
Will you let your face shine on me again?
Dear Lord, am I thinking and writing like a fool?
Dear Lord it is just very dark out there tonight.
Alone a smoldering wick and a bruised reed
Alone with You and the love of my life in pain.

Gerry Gutierrez.